Midwestern Wanderlog

2016-03-30 – Fatigue and lack of motivation


Gave some very serious thought this morning to giving up.  Stayed up way too late, I’m tired, I’m achy, my throat is scratchy, and it’s drizzling.

Sunrise Stats!
First light: 6:25 AM
Sunrise: 6:54 AM
Daylight: 13 hrs, 40 min

But then how would I feel, giving up my consecutive sunrises streak?  So this morning found me on the trail again, letting myself be drizzled on, for the sake of capturing every single sunrise in a year.

So I guess the real question is, why don’t I quit?  Certainly could.  Nobody would blame me if I did, what with the change in my schedule that keeps me up until one or two in the morning and causes a broken sleep – whenever I get enough, which is mostly reserved for the weekend.

_MG_7990What reasons do you have, to keep yourself going when a task grinds on and on, tougher each day than it was the day before?  What keeps you slogging for your goal, your desire, your dream, when all is monotonous and painful on several levels?  Stubbornness?  Pride?  Remembering why you started in the first place?

How long do those reasons keep you going for?  What drags you out when you start to wonder ‘Is this actually worth it?’

Habit will save you when motivation fails.

Today was entertaining more than philosophically, though.  You know those thin, billowy, plastic, one-size-fits-none ponchos that places sell to tourists?  I keep a stash of those for occasions when I’m out taking pictures and the weather isn’t cooperating.  Pulled it out and it’s more than large enough to cover me plus camera backpack.  Awkward managing my tripod, phone for the time checks, and spot recordings, though.

_MG_7991Welllll… got up to the eastern overlook and it was sprinking in earnest; I opened the camera bag feeling pleased and somewhat smug at being prepared to protect my camera with the rain sleeve, only to find that I never put the rainsleeve back in after the last time it got wet.

There are times I just wish for a second tripod for the GoPro, or a second person to hold it, because I am sure I looked just ridiculous!  Put the camera on the tripod and then looped my poncho over the top of it.  Then the wind kicked up, plastering the poncho to the camera and tripod, driving the rain into the lens, soaking the camera backpack, which I tried to bring under the poncho-shielded area of the tripod that I was tethered to by the poncho!

Cleared the lens long enough for dawn photos, though.  And isn’t that the whole point?

Panoramic 090

One thought on “2016-03-30 – Fatigue and lack of motivation

  1. Leanne Overlander

    Sometimes we just have to laugh at the circumstances and say nice try but I still won. So glad you were able to capture the sunrise still even with your struggles with the rain and wind.

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